So, I was sitting at work tonight, thinking about all the reasons that they were wrong (not necessarily about their positions but about me) when I had an epiphany. I really don't care if they disagree with my position on this issue. I think disagreement is healthy, and vital in politics. And I also realized that it's a huge waste of my energy to argue about something that none of us has any control over, especially since half the people in the debate were Canadian.
Then a scripture came to mind...
Don't have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels. And the Lord's servant must not quarrel; instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful.
2 Timothy 2:23,24
I'm wasting my time. And I becoming resentful against people who are beautiful creations of God, and whom I am commanded to love. I'm spending my time engaging in foolish and stupid arguments, which serve no real purpose.
I realized that I represent my faith on that board. When people read what I write, they read it as a Christian perspective. And even if the topic isn't religious, what I say affects what they think about people who are religious. So, if I'm accomplishing anything, it's making people more hostile to Christians, Christianity, Christ, and to me personally. And who really needs that?
For those who know me, I'm not a judgmental person! Even when I disagree, that just doesn't equal judgment for me. If I judge anyone harshly, it's usually myself. I've made so many mistakes in my own life, I don't feel that I have any right to stand in judgment of someone else. I'm a terrible stereotype in that way, because I really like people so much.
So, I sent a PM to a moderator to have my debates access revoked. I've just come through kind of a rough place emotionally and spiritually, and want to follow what my faith requires of me. For now, that means to stop quarreling. I thought it would hard, but instead I feel like a weight has been lifted. Despite what some people think, I think sometimes going was simply an exercise in self-abuse. And, as I said, who needs that?