Thank you to Marti on my care page message board for giving me the perfect term to describe how I'm currently feeling: NICU tired. It's more than just sleepy, it's a physical and emotional exhaustion.
I think I was doing very well until yesterday, when the frustration really started to get to me, and I was falling asleep at Quinn's bedside. I came home last night and fell into a very deep sleep. I had trouble even waking for my alarm which wakes me up to pump.
Hopefully the sleep will provide me with the necessary energy to do well today and go work with the baby some more. I'm really hoping to get him eating very soon so that he can come home. I miss him.